Today Is The First Day Of The Rest Of Your Life

I know that's an odd picture but Russell was saying to me last night ....I bet you're going to put a New Years Baby on your blog tomorrow. And I said yeah, and I'll call it Russell. ;) Anyhow it never even crossed my mind to put a New Years Baby on here but I didn't want to disappoint him. Weird guy huh?

This has been a crappy year. It started out with me leaving South Carolina and going back to New Mexico. I stayed there for 7 weeks and then Russell and I got back together and decided to move to Oklahoma. But first I went back to South Carolina (where I never wanted to go again) to help him get his stuff and we ended up being stuck there for almost a month because he had transmission problems with his truck that kept us there. Finally we made it out of there and drove to Oklahoma and in two trips brought his three vehicles and large boat and all his other stuff there. Everything that could go wrong, did go wrong.

Despite all the obstacles, we made it here where we found a house to rent on the first day. We both found jobs within a couple of weeks. Russell ended up taking a temporary job until the position with a certain trucking company opened up and that's where he's working now.Like any long distance move that you make....it's been difficult starting over in a new place. It took some time getting used to living here. Although I really do like living here, I still feel the stress in my life due to the fact that for some time I felt like I had no stability in my life.

For the past month or so, the memories of what happened this time last year have haunted me. Even though I know they are part of the past, I relive them in my mind when what I should really do is put them behind me. I have always had a hard time leaving the past behind me. It's not like I can just wipe things out of my mind and forget they ever happened. But I can remind myself....every day is a new day. Every day is a new chance to start over.

So now it's 2009. One year closer to 2010 when Russell will be free of a financial obligation that now prevents us from buying a house. I have a feeling that this is going to be a great year. I'm going to take that attitude going into the new year because life is about choices. We have free will. We can choose to be happy or we can choose to be miserable. We cannot rely on another person to find happiness either....it has to come from within.
I wish you all happiness, peace and love in this new year.

Blessings.