Monday, July 9, 2012
This morning as I was walking in this quiet neighbood with tree lined streets I was feeling calm and peaceful. But in the dark of the early morning before the sun came up I was awake thinking about things. I was thinking about how one minute I could feel fine and the next I was feeling that very lonely feeling that leaves my heart feeling empty. As much as I tell myself I'm not going to feel sad anymore, I can't seem to escape it. It sneaks up on me and I remember that I am alone. I miss having someone who calls me and sends me texts throughout the day to see how I'm doing, I miss having someone to lay next to at night with his arm around me. I miss having someone I can share my deepest thoughts with.