Thursday, March 8, 2012

I wish my family would realize that I am not leaving them just for the sake of leaving. I did not make a mistake when I left the first time when I went to SC. That relationship....while it ended badly was meant to happen. Everything in life that is meant to happen....does. There are no accidents. I just wish people would realize that. I am going where my path leads me. Peter coming into my life when he did has been really good for me. When I first came back here to NM I would go to bed every night and just pray not to wake up in the morning. I was like that for about two weeks. Then one day by fate I started talking to Peter and something amazing happened. He made me laugh and little by little I did not feel so horrible anymore. He has helped me so much...I can't even begin to say. He does not care that I am not thin. He tells me I am beautiful. He loves me. I am going to give this relationship a chance but that does not mean that I don't love my family or that I am abandoning them.

4 comments:

  1. I'm sure they are just worried about you because they love you. You are on the rebound, but that doesn't mean it won't work out. And like you said--whether it does or not, it feels it is meant to be and you will learn things from it one way or the other. Everything happens for a reason. You have chosen to pursue this path, this relationship, come what may. I am sure they're just worried. They care. They don't want to see you hurt, as none of us do. And I am also sure that they will be there for you in the end...whatever happens. You have to follow your heart and do what you feel is right. What else can one do in life? :):) *hugs*

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  2. Ah, yes. The classic family guilt syndrome. God bless em - they want to think they are doing what's right for us, but really they are trying to keep us to the same level they themselves are accustomed to. You are on the right track, Barb, all you need are your own convictions.

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  3. They're trying to stop you getting hurt again. All you can do is follow your path, try and be understanding of how they feel and why they say what they do, and hope they can do the same!

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  4. I think they are more envious and jealous... to be losing the "focus" of your love, than upset you are leaving them. Their emotion is not an "ugly" one - its just mis-spoken.

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